sitting on the loveseat watching my candles flicker and burn. full moon tonight, and it's officially christmas eve. i've felt very off since friday. i hate that the emperor always pulls his shit during holidays or exams. i had recaptured a tiny bit of my holiday spirit, and had been anxiety free, and then...wham, right in the gut. the fact that the ( Read more... )

for better or worse, i pushed send this time ( Read more... )

unsent letters... ever since that strange girl i once knew told me about them, i find myself composing them on occasion. the idea was like a virus. contagious. fortunately i'm not afflicted all that often. so here is a december installment, brought on by a sudden outbreak ( Read more... )

i haven't written in here in a long time, for good reason. i'd rather try and ignore how unhappy i am, not wallow in it by writing (and rereading) about it here. but i have to write something now. this cannot pass without comment ( Read more... )

it's official: today was good, i'm not depressed, and i didn't cry once ( Read more... )

i was going to write about the kissing. about how warm he was next to me. how soft the fabric of his shirt was under my fingertips. the taste of his neck beneath my lips. how he felt, pressed tight against his slacks. the feel of his mouth on mine, his tongue teasing my own. how much i wanted. how little he gave. it was a kiss i've waited for, ( Read more... )